Je'taime :)

-Last Kiss-

Votre nom restera toujours dans mon coeur.

Vous aime, mon ami et amant :)

Roaarr!!!  

Exam is like in another two weeks and God knows better
whether or not i've made my complete revision.

Practically, im suppose starting with theories. That was what i planned
on for the past 3 weeks, to COVER every theories for 3 papers.
But oh crap, procrastinate PROCRASTINATE and distraction
after distraction and ended to more DISTRACTION, i hardly
can put myself into schedule. God, please help me :(

And now im currently in my, what i used to call as BLOATED-WEEK.
Its my two weeks before my period when i've all this mood swings, laziness
to the utmost max, sleepy, tantrums and hugahuga, i feel fugly inside out.
This makes me even more depressed with pimples bulging out and im growing
side way. Bye bye bikini on Sunday. *sad sad*

and i miss Gordon, some more

with Xavier who never stops tarnishing me 

Ok, back to my exam and studies. Sighs, if im gonna fail anymore paper/papers,

i swear my dad gonna kill me. Fees are like in pounds and i paid extra 1k for those

3 papers due to our ignorance on not knowing penalty would be charged for 

late payment. Dad speaks *grumblesgrunbles*

I feel like the whole world is on my shoulder now *sobs*

I wanna break free!!!!

God, help me.

God, give me all the wisdom.

God, please take away my bad bad procrastinating habit.

God, help me focus.

God, guide me.

Amen.

YAY!! :D

Missing you, lots.

i still remember the look on your face

lit through the darkness at 1:58

the words that you whispered for just us to know

you told me you loved me

so why did you go away away

i do recall now, the smell of the rain

fresh on the pavement

i ran off the plane

that july ninth, the beat of your heart

it jumps through your shirt

i can still feel your arms

but now i'll go, sit on the floor

wearing your clothes

all that i know is i don't know

how to be something you miss

i never thought we'd have a last kiss

never imaGined we'd end like this

your name, forever the name on my lips

i do remember the swing of your step

the life of the party, you're showing off again

and i'd rOll my eyes and then you'd pull me in

i'm not much for dancing, but for you i did

because i love your handshake, meeting my father

i love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

how you'd kiss me when i was in the middle of saying something

there's not a day i don't miss those Rude interruptions

and i'll go sit on the floor

wearing your clothes

all that i know is i don't know

how to be something you miss

i never thought we'd have a last kiss

never imagineD we'd end like this

your name, forever the name on my lips

so i'll watch your life in pictures like i used to watch you sleep

and i feel you forget me like i used to feel you breathe

and i'll keep up with our old friends

just to ask them how you are

hope it's nice where yOu are

and i hope the suN shines and it's a beautiful day

and something reminds you you wish you had stayed

you can plan for a change in the weather and time

but i never planned on you changing your mind

so i'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes

all that i know is i don't know how to be something you miss

i never thought we'd have a last kiss

never imagined we'd end like this

your name, forever the name on my lips

just like our last kiss

forever the name on my lips

forever the name on my lips

just like our last

*******************************************************

You :)

13.11.10, it was almost midnight, you came over though you were very tired. I put on what you always want me to wear; a pair of jeans and a white shirt; your favorite color. You look awesome as you were wearing formal. I was stunned for a minute :)

We drove around and got our normal little arguments. Haha. You insisted to get me supper as i hardly touch anything since i got myself toothache. We drove around that little town of ours, round and round. Finally, you stopped at 7E, you got me a bar of almond chocolate, instant porridge and mocha coffee. You held me by my waist while haunting for your milk drink. We were swaying in 7E, feeling so much in love. It was beautiful and i never expect that us, would end the following day.  

I remembered how you kissed me that night before i got into the house, it was differ than usual. It was long, but i cant reach it, i was hanging and i cannot stop questioning myself why was it longer. Guess it was an early sign on what would happened the following day, 14.11.10.. 

US was short. But our friendship was damn long. You were a nice friend and anawesome boyfriend though you can be such a pain in my ass at times. I'll never forget you, as a friend, brother and lover. You always are amazing :)

I doubt i can love the next one like how i used to love you. May God bless you to be the blessing to the people around you.

Missing you lots,

Little Lyn 

My not-very-first-attempt.

My title explained much. 

Testing testing. Will update whenever i'm free. 

Gonna make this one a COMMITMENT :)