:: Second Entry

DECEMBER

What would be the things that crosses your mind when DECEMBER is uttered out?

For me, it meant:

: CHRISTMAS!!

: Holiday

: Greeennnn

: Kampung

: GRANDPA :D

: Mejeng

: Drinks and cookies

But now, it only means:

: Holiday

: Holiday

: Holiday

: Christmas

Yeah, see the differences there, there?

My feelings and my passion on December changed wasn't because

of me getting older. Wasn't because i had more fun in any other months

compared to December. No. It changed because of the people around me.

Specifically people that are very close to me and used to be close to me.

Over the past 3 years, December which always relate to Christmas, changed a lot

in me. Not only in me, but my family. Not only just my family. But the Baha's. Yup, that's

my grandpa's name. 

It all started and it wasn't started 3 years back but actually has been 

longer than that, by my aunt called Katherine (troublemaker). And nope, i don't feel regret on putting this up.

This is my entry for rumbles and grumbles, remember? 

So, listen and not be afraid. Back to

topic, see, how much a TINY SHORT PETITE female can destroy a family tree. She destroyed 

way than anyone could imagine. 

(Yes, i indeed have that tiny short petite. But i'm a sane one not insane like her. Just that, shorties are actually poisonous than tallies. Lol!)

Back then, my Mom and grandpa used to be very close. And yup, she used to be my grandpa's

favorite in law. If you ask me now, i don't think grandpa feels the same anymore, as he is hurt. Mom was always the one who goes back to kampung to accompany my grandpa, not only during Gawai and Christmas but any days when she feels like to. Especially when i haven't started my kindy, it was a common thing for us to stay in kampung for almost a month or more. Mom never complaint or whatsoever as she herself willingly and love doing so. Bribing is totally out of my mom's dictionary, everything was purely SINCERE.  Life was pretty much fun and peaceful in the Baha's.

But, things get worse when troublemaker got transfered from Limbang to Kuching. Before, she used to visited and stayed in our house for a month or more. 

Or when she was having her training and courses in Kuching.

My mom may not gave her a 5 stars hospitality but, she did and gave her best to ensure that troublemaker felt comfortable and all. Do you've any freaking idea what my mom got in return? Troublemaker made untrue comments and stories bout how lousy my mom is to her friends and my other aunt. Can you imagine that??!!

She complaint bout little little things. Eg, my mom never actually make milo or coffee in the morning cause she thinks it's a waste if she made it to feed everyone but towards the end of the day, there're still some leftovers. So, yup! Troublemaker making a fuss out of it and pester around that my mom is a lazy housewife. Fuck her!

As i used to go back kampung visiting grandpa, im pretty much his favorite grand-daughter. And this actually cause an issue to that bitch as well. She, again, brought her filthy mouth telling people how much she dislike the fact grandpa loves me. And how "ngegeh" i'm when im with grandpa. Like wtf! Go get a life bitch, he's my grandpa, and i sincerely love him. Unlike you! Basically all of my siblings are grandpa's favorite cause we're just pretty damn close to him compare to my other cousins. 

Oh my, i always have tons to rumbles when comes to her. But to make story lil bit shorter, i'll start with the last 3 years incident. Back when i was Form 5, somewhere near SPM, i guess, mom and dad had the biggest and scariest fight. Came to the extend that mom wanted a divorce from dad. It was because dad helped Troublemaker with her thesis. Mom wasn't happy cause no matter how much afford my dad helped her, appreciation is out of her dictionary and she will always pestering our family with her rubbish untrue stories and jealousy towards our family. When dad got back home (he spent hours at her house), mom started bombarding him and things got rough. Dad took the broom and almost wanted to hit mom. That was the point when mom was hell mad and started saying that dad never stands out for her when that bitch passing untrue shits bout her and blah blah blah. Things was pretty much a hell to us siblings. Ever since that day, mom started treating grandpa coldly :C And her enthusiasm on going back to kampung just, disappear.... Result of it: We barely go back kampung anymore as dad also loose the enthusiasm on going back as he's not used of going back without mom around. Sighs.

Katherine. Bitch. Troublemaker. She's matter of fact very harmless. Peanuts. But i still don't get it WHY none of her siblings dare to at least advice her. Don;t tell me cause she's the youngest in the family and she's the wealthiest ooooo.....  My aunt and my uncle SHOULD be responsible on that. My mom's case can be an exception but hell, they should taunt her for making grandpa cried and treating grandpa like little kids! How can they still give her the respect when she don't respect their father, her own father, MY GRANDPA!!!??? Bunch of cowards, i guess. Geez. Guess who went screwing that bitch when she made grandpa cried? *drum rolls* ME! Yes, was me. But this bitch lives in denial and she's also having selective memories. All she did was DENYING and LISTING OUT HER GOOD POINTS. I thought she wanted to meet me up but well, she's actually a pussy too. Sighs.

Back to December. Sighs. I wish those grown ups not only physically changing but also a brain that continues developing. Maybe it's caused by the fact that they no longer drinking or never drinks brain-development-milks. No wonder the younger ones has more rationalities in them. Lol! 

Sighs. Life would be better when we all get our innocence back, don't they? Life would be better when we can erase every of our bad memories or life actually came with a delete button, so we can delete those buggers :C But, it seems like life keep on fucking us hard. No mercy or not even has the sympathy on us who are actually already a fallen man. 

I want that December-Christmas Spirit back. The enthusiasm of celebrating it. But one thing that never change, my love to grandpa and how badly i wanna see him. Not only me, but my siblings :C We all miss grandpa badly. He's our only one left. Life is short. No, im not cursing grandpa but isn't too late when he he leaves us one day? :C 

Adults. RAWWRRR!!!